Well hey there everyone!!! This week has been so tough for me. And this is probably my last blog until next sunday or monday because i'm going to a EFY this week, starting tomorrow. So this week has had its ups and downs, with yesterday being the hardest of them all. I had been looking forward to yesterday for the last two weeks of my workout bootcamp! It was the day where I was going to get to go shopping, and hang out with my lovely cousin kelli, and I would get my senior pictures done, and just have a great day.
When I got up yesterday I got ready to go to the gym with my sister, who put me through a lovely bootcamp to get me started!! and then once I was done with that I got on the treadmill and my legs didn't feel like they worked. well, I ended up falling off the treadmill and was extremely dizzy (I blame that on my bad breathing during exercise skills). So I was done exercising for the morning, and to say the least I felt disappointed in myself and my body. I cried.
After that my sister took me shopping, and it felt like nothing fit! It was such a bad feeling and even though I've lost 13 pounds it seemed as though I had gained 10. So although we had specifically gone shopping for jeans, I ended up only getting one shirt.
When we got back to my sister's apartment I sat in the bathroom with the door locked for over 2 hours and did some more crying! (yes, I am a drama queen) Once I was done with that senior pictures really didn't seem so exciting, nor did I look like a could get them done with my puffy eyes. And then I had forgotten all about my cousin.
So there you have it. Yesterday officially bit the dust. But you know what? days like that are gonna happen when I'm working this hard. It doesn't mean I should give up, or gorge on ice cream, that won't make me feel any better. I just have to keep going! Food doesn't own me, I OWN ME. Exercise also doesn't own me, I've come to realize. It's just a tool in getting to where I want to go, where I NEED to go. So here's how it's gonna be:
-I won't endulge on food. As my sister Lauren once said, "Don't reward yourself with food, you're not a dog."
-I will continue to practice proper portions! (let's be honest, overeating just isn't healthy)
-Exercise will continue to be a tool to get me to a smaller and happier me, although it won't own my life.
-My family must be a priority, or else none of this will matter
My name's Blaire. And although I still have a long way to go, I'm already 13 pounds down, and I won't let myself gain it back. This week has made me stronger in my desire to become healthy. So here I am, and I'm ready to finish this and continue a healthy lifestyle. Follow my journey.
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